the growing of golden grass in my head
curving behind my ears
moving in eternal birth
feeling others' approaches as tunnels, darkness dug inside
I fall in their touches and looks
people breathing in my lungs
feeding in my stomach and embraces
smoke and ordinariness
empty sounds in my steps
holes left in my departures
kids laughing in me with innocence and fear
platonic sunsets like waterfalls down on my walls
posters and lies
me - undressing under the sky
- soul naked beneath your hand
sleep and depth in warm shells
chemistry in my colours
magic simplicity in things i can't hold and bear
pollution and revolt
injustice
I suck the planet through this umbilical cord
and still never become something
beauty and heavenly reliance
parents and blanket's safety
love, insecurity and shifting oneness
above all my sunk relativity in feelings and time
different sides, death in all
trouble and insanity
seeds sown in bins and animal cells
evolving in earth and outer space
hazard, nothingness, unknown
but faith in me
but God in us
skin - air, green eyes - ocean
standing here, cursing my words
spitting on my emotions
I'm all that I'll never be
and still I'll strive to survive
genetics is my escape
does it worth doing
does it worth questioning
ends and reincarnations
all wear one name: happiness in absurdity
rain and sun
science, stupid ties, prizes and fake smiles
heart beats, an ill third eye, diseases, hunger and prayers
don't ask
I'm old and tired
I take too much space
and I think I'm alive
I see springs in my asphalt
my life smells like ivy
and I drink only stars
I'm a little too blind for this speed, these cars
these forever green trees
I'll take my lipstick, my pillow
and start to pretend
in reality and dreams.