18 years...
does anything change
or is it all just the same,

Can we find something new
to break away from our fears
or is it all just a continual
chain of disappointments...

I bleed all,
and I'm SO(S) tired of bleeding,
as my wounds
just won't redeem themselves
on the lips and teeth of the vampire,

I feed as they do
on smokes
and booze
and I am so too tired of feeding
on Synthesia industrial made sorrow,

I practice greed
as they do
and I'm so tired
of stealing the goods
out of God's warehouse,

I pray at the moon
for a blasphemous comet,
I pray to the stars for a new bow
and for arctic arrows,
I pray for a new exquisite Hamlet
and for a new improved
Lara Croft
packed with infinite ammunition,

I pray for my birthday,
as I...

whisper a wish
in my mind so that no one
from the guests will ever hear it,
like a feather floating on distance,
I want to...
I want to...
shhh...