it is only

once in a while

that you see

someone whose

electricity

and presence

matches yours

at that

moment



and then

usually it's

a stranger.



it was 3 or 4

years ago

i was walking on

Sunset Blvd

toward Vermont

when

a block away

i noticed a

figure moving

toward me.



there was something

in her carriage

and in her walk

which

attracted

me.



as we came

closer

the intensity

increased.



suddenly

i knew her

entire history:

she had lived

all her life

with men

who had never really

known her.



as she approached

i became almost

dizzy.



i could hear her

footsteps as

she approached.



i looked into

her face.



she was as

beautiful

as i had

imagined she

would be.



as we passed

our eyes fucked

and loved and

sang to each

other



and then

she moved

past me.



i walked on

not looking

back.



then

when i looked

back

she was

gone.



what is one

to do

in a world

where almost everything

worth having

or doing

is

impossible?



I went into

a coffee shop

and decided that

if i ever saw

her again somehow,

I'd say

"listen, please

i just must

speak to

you..."



I never saw her

again



I never will.



the iron in our

society silences

a man's

heart



and when you

silence a man's

heart

you leave him

finally with only

a cock.